2009 , always used to gl , kp my friends . saying if i dont gl or kp my name not hongliang .
theres still people ever more gl , xl , kp than me . giving bad impressions to friend's parents , even though i did nothing .
very good example was , the day bryan and dexter pon school . after class met them and bryan told me , dexter mom was afraid that i might be a bad influence to dexter . maybe it was because a few days back i went to his house and said " hello auntie " ? look , i dont smoke , neither pon class as much as they did , and clearly remembered that i didnt spray any vulgarities at his house . but still , bad influence ?.

2010 , many things had happend and i realised ,i dont need that much friends . as long as those i cared for and they cared for me , thats enough . see-ing the way i was , really regretted . because i lost something important to me , i was mentally prepared back then . but when she mention it , it still hurts alot . till now , changing for the better . i thought before ,god allows me to rewind into the past changing everything right . but , just changing for that period of time . whats the use ? memories won't be important to me now , and there won't be memories of you and me . for me to reminicse , to change into a better person . Some told me , " just give up " or " why keep waiting ?" but i told them . " you won't be asking me this question when you really fall in love with someone ." didnt play that much dota like i used to , or maybe didnt play at all . because she told me , dota = boyfriend stealer and i dont find any fun in dota already . just leveling and killing , taking down their throne , it sucks srsly . and i still cant find a reason why some will get so pissed off while playing it , i admit even i get pissed off in the past . but now to me its like ," COME ON ITS JUST A GAME , WHY GETTING ANGRY OVER STUPID PIXELS ? " if i were her , i won't like my boyfriend to get angry over a stupid game either right ?
attitude wise , nobody will like 2009 HL .
be someone that can care for others , be someone that will put themselves into other people's shoes before talking . be understanding , dont listen to only one side of the story before making conclusions . these are my objectives , and , be a man of my word .


cheryl , maybe because of my attitude thats why things will led to today .
32 days to be exact since we officially broke off , but till today . i kept my promise ,
i learnt alot of things on my own within these 32 days .
no matter how long it takes , this idiot will be there for you .
because this idiot loves you , for who you are and what you will become .
sorted out his childish thinking from the past , trying to do stuffs that thought will get your attention .
but plan got backfired instead , which made you even more irritated .
changing to be a better person , waiting for a second chance for me to love you all over again .
you might not be visiting my blog anymore but im still doing this .
because this idiot hopes and pray that you will see a change in him . this idiot isnt him anymore , this idiot is trying to change for the better , this idiot is willing to risk everything for you .
this idiot is still waiting for you to text him , even as a normal friend status..
he lost his courage to do so , lost his courage to do many things ..
yours since 09/09/09 , i love you .